All I have to say is THANK GOD! My babies are ok. We went two days ago to the doctor's office for our 2nd prenatal appointment. I was so nervous and scared! I thought for sure that something would be wrong... vanishing twin syndrome... no heartbeat! I thought of every bad possible thing! My husband kept telling me, "it's going to be ok, honey." But I did not believe him for a second. The appointment setter said that we were going to be listening to the heartbeats today, so I just kept thinking... "Please, God!" When the appointment finally started (it felt like it took an eternity) I expected the doctor to pull out the doppler and listen to my babies but instead she pulled out the ultrasound machine! She said that it would be a lot easier to tell if they were ok by looking at them. The second that camera was on my stomach was the second I started bawling my eyes out! There they BOTH were, kicking and punching and moving around like crazy kids. I was so overwhelmed with feelings! I swear that I can feel them sometimes, I know that it is probably just gas but when I saw them moving like that, I realized that I could seriously be feeling them. They were so big! They looked like real little alien babies! I am so in love and can't wait to see them again, JULY 9th! Supposely we will find out if they are boys or girls at this ultrasound. Our daughter gets to come also and she is very excited! I am finally halfway convinced that everything is going to turn out alright. We are already pretty much past the miscarriage stage and as a long as I don't go into extreme pre-term labor, my babies are going to come out perfect!
This is going to be a busy week! My brother is graduating from high school so my grandparents are coming up from California. We only get to see them once a year or longer so I am going to spend as much time with them as possible! This is also the last full week of school for my big girl! I can't believe that after the summer she will be in 3rd grade! Time flies! My husband graduates with his master's degree in less than two weeks as well. I am so proud of my smart hubby! Life is going great right now! I am very excited to start our next chapter.
Here's a tummy pic! Well, actually right now it is not letting me upload the pic! I will try later...
Twisting our way through love, marriage, and children!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
10 weeks, 6 days
I can't believe how fast time is passing. It seems like just yesterday I was taking a pregnancy test to find out if I was pregnant or not. Now I am going to be 11 weeks pregnant with twins. It is crazy. I am not having so much morning sickness which is nice. But I am having a lot of indigestion, bloating, and exhaustion. I am really scared for my 2nd prenatal appointment next week. I am just hoping that everything is going well, both of my babies are doing well and that we get to hear both of their heartbeats. The doctor says that there is practically no chance of me having a miscarriage because they saw such great heartbeats but I don't really believe it until I see my little ones. 1 more week...
Everything else is going well. My husband is going to graduate with his master's degree in 3 weeks. That is going to be great! My daughter only has a couple weeks left of school also. I can't believe that she is going to be in 3rd grade! Time just flies. We are going on our first official camping trip of the season this weekend. My whole family is coming and we are going up to Mt. Hood. I am excited for that. We did go camping just Josh and I for 1 night last weekend and I really enjoyed that. I am looking forward to this summer when we have a lot of family time. My grandparents are coming into town for my brother's high school graduation on June 5th! I am so excited!
Everything else is going well. My husband is going to graduate with his master's degree in 3 weeks. That is going to be great! My daughter only has a couple weeks left of school also. I can't believe that she is going to be in 3rd grade! Time just flies. We are going on our first official camping trip of the season this weekend. My whole family is coming and we are going up to Mt. Hood. I am excited for that. We did go camping just Josh and I for 1 night last weekend and I really enjoyed that. I am looking forward to this summer when we have a lot of family time. My grandparents are coming into town for my brother's high school graduation on June 5th! I am so excited!
Monday, May 4, 2009
8 weeks 5 days
This weekend was crazy busy and I am still exhausted from it. On Saturday, we drove down to Salem for a wedding reception. It was nice to see my husband's family and know that they were very excited for the twins as well. On Sunday we had to drive to Salem again for a cousin's birthday party. I was so exhausted after church and making it to the party that last night, I fell assleep in about 5 seconds flat. Being pregnant is tiring work...
On another note, I am still sick mostly everyday. I have felt a bit better today and I think that I realized why. I ate toast this morning and bought some strawberries and grazed on them throughout the whole morning. Making myself eat might be a good thing. Even though I haven't vomited yet, I have lost about 2 pounds. It's amazing though that while losing weight, a pregnant tummy just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I'm only going to be 9 weeks and I am already bigger than my aunt who is 16 weeks pregnant with one. It is crazy when I look at myself in the mirror. With my first daughter I didn't even show until I was 7 months along. Maybe it is that this is my second pregnancy and also there are 2 growing in there. I will post a picture when I can.
Thanks for reading.
On another note, I am still sick mostly everyday. I have felt a bit better today and I think that I realized why. I ate toast this morning and bought some strawberries and grazed on them throughout the whole morning. Making myself eat might be a good thing. Even though I haven't vomited yet, I have lost about 2 pounds. It's amazing though that while losing weight, a pregnant tummy just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I'm only going to be 9 weeks and I am already bigger than my aunt who is 16 weeks pregnant with one. It is crazy when I look at myself in the mirror. With my first daughter I didn't even show until I was 7 months along. Maybe it is that this is my second pregnancy and also there are 2 growing in there. I will post a picture when I can.
Thanks for reading.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
8 weeks 0 days
First off, I would like to say that my new nephew is here! He was born yesterday at 9:41 A.M. He is 7 lbs 3 ozs and 20 inches long. He is so adorable. I am in love with him already... perfectly healthy and my sister is doing awesome as well. I was so hormonal yesterday after watching his birth. I had this overwhelming sense that this was actually real. I am actually going to have TWO babies. I suddenly felt like my world was falling in. I was so anxious... I was thinking how am I going to take care of two babies? How was the whole hospital thing going to work? How am I going to hold both of my babies? I know that people have been having twins for a long time but I just feel so worried about me actually doing it. Of course everyone was telling me that they are going to help and that I was not going to be alone. I know that my husband will be there and that he will help probably more than I want him to but at some point he has to go to work. Once the fancy wears off, people aren't going to be so willing to come and do my laundry and let me take a shower. I know that I am going to make it, I know that I will love these babies and do everything I can for them... I am just scared.
On top of all the stress that I have been feeling, my gluclose levels came back abnormal. So I not only had to drink that nasty orange drink once but today I had to go back and drink it again. I had to do a 3 hour gluclose test which meant fasting for 12 hours first. I then went in around 8. They took my blood the first time then sent me out of the waiting room. Around a half hour later, they called me in to drink the nasty drink. Then made me go back out to the waiting room for an hour. Exactly an hour later I went back in for them to draw my blood again. At this point I was very nauseous and it was obvious that the techs knew it so they drew my blood then gave me a room to lay down in. They let me know that if I vomited, I would have to come back tomorrow and start all over again before they left me alone. I waited for another hour and went back to get my blood drawn again. They poked me and realized that that vein did not want to give anymore blood so they had to retry in the other arm. So fun! I then went back in the room for one more hour before they drew their final vial. So as of right now, I haven't eaten for about 16 hours. I am exhausted and still nauseous. I can not even fathom eating anything without throwing it up and I had to go to work! I am practically falling out of my desk. I know that I have to eat something at some point but I really don't want to up chuck at work. How embarassing.
On a nice note, my stomach is feeling completely pregnant. It is getting bigger and bigger with each day that passes. I have not stopped worrying about the health of my precious cargo but everytime I look at my growing stomach, it makes me feel a little better. Hopefully I don't have diabetes but if I do, I will do everything in my power to make sure these babies stay and grow healthy.
On top of all the stress that I have been feeling, my gluclose levels came back abnormal. So I not only had to drink that nasty orange drink once but today I had to go back and drink it again. I had to do a 3 hour gluclose test which meant fasting for 12 hours first. I then went in around 8. They took my blood the first time then sent me out of the waiting room. Around a half hour later, they called me in to drink the nasty drink. Then made me go back out to the waiting room for an hour. Exactly an hour later I went back in for them to draw my blood again. At this point I was very nauseous and it was obvious that the techs knew it so they drew my blood then gave me a room to lay down in. They let me know that if I vomited, I would have to come back tomorrow and start all over again before they left me alone. I waited for another hour and went back to get my blood drawn again. They poked me and realized that that vein did not want to give anymore blood so they had to retry in the other arm. So fun! I then went back in the room for one more hour before they drew their final vial. So as of right now, I haven't eaten for about 16 hours. I am exhausted and still nauseous. I can not even fathom eating anything without throwing it up and I had to go to work! I am practically falling out of my desk. I know that I have to eat something at some point but I really don't want to up chuck at work. How embarassing.
On a nice note, my stomach is feeling completely pregnant. It is getting bigger and bigger with each day that passes. I have not stopped worrying about the health of my precious cargo but everytime I look at my growing stomach, it makes me feel a little better. Hopefully I don't have diabetes but if I do, I will do everything in my power to make sure these babies stay and grow healthy.
Monday, April 27, 2009
7 weeks 4 days
Wow! What a weekend it has been!
I ended up going to the ER on Saturday night because I was having cramping all day. The tenderness started from the morning and as the day progressed, the sharp pains started. I was freaking out so I went into the ER. The doctor seemed like such a scmuck. He told me that basically there was nothing that he could do and that if I was going to lose the babies, I was going to lose the babies. Obviously I know that there is nothing he could do to stop it, but c'mon! How about some reassurance? To make matters worse, I asked him to perform an ultrasound to check both of the babies, make sure that they both had heartbeats, etc... He did not want to do that because he said that if they were going to die there was nothing he could do about it. I basically made him do an abdominal, he would not do a vaginal. He only found one heartbeat! He wouldn't look for the other one. He told me, "well, we found one, so I'm sure that the other is ok." I was so scared! On Sunday, I felt much better cramping wise but was still scared and tired from the long stay.
Today was my first prenatal appointment. I told the doctor about the ER incident and thankfully, she was very concerned. She wheeled in an ultrasound machine right away and did a vaginal u/s. She found both of the beating hearts. That made me feel so much better. Everything else in the appointment went great. She said that because I am having twins, it is a high risk pregnany but she doesn't forsee any problems, whatsoever. She does want me to register for the one hospital that Kaiser has that has a 3 level NICU in case I go into preterm labor. All of these things are flying through my head now and I am so worried and excited at the same time. Now that we saw both of the heartbeats, the chances of miscarriage is very slim but you never know if and when these babies are going to decide to come out. My personal goal is to carry them for 37 weeks. However, I have to do that...
My next appointment is at the end of the month. I will be 12 weeks and supposely we will hear the heartbeats! So exciting!
That's all for now.
I ended up going to the ER on Saturday night because I was having cramping all day. The tenderness started from the morning and as the day progressed, the sharp pains started. I was freaking out so I went into the ER. The doctor seemed like such a scmuck. He told me that basically there was nothing that he could do and that if I was going to lose the babies, I was going to lose the babies. Obviously I know that there is nothing he could do to stop it, but c'mon! How about some reassurance? To make matters worse, I asked him to perform an ultrasound to check both of the babies, make sure that they both had heartbeats, etc... He did not want to do that because he said that if they were going to die there was nothing he could do about it. I basically made him do an abdominal, he would not do a vaginal. He only found one heartbeat! He wouldn't look for the other one. He told me, "well, we found one, so I'm sure that the other is ok." I was so scared! On Sunday, I felt much better cramping wise but was still scared and tired from the long stay.
Today was my first prenatal appointment. I told the doctor about the ER incident and thankfully, she was very concerned. She wheeled in an ultrasound machine right away and did a vaginal u/s. She found both of the beating hearts. That made me feel so much better. Everything else in the appointment went great. She said that because I am having twins, it is a high risk pregnany but she doesn't forsee any problems, whatsoever. She does want me to register for the one hospital that Kaiser has that has a 3 level NICU in case I go into preterm labor. All of these things are flying through my head now and I am so worried and excited at the same time. Now that we saw both of the heartbeats, the chances of miscarriage is very slim but you never know if and when these babies are going to decide to come out. My personal goal is to carry them for 37 weeks. However, I have to do that...
My next appointment is at the end of the month. I will be 12 weeks and supposely we will hear the heartbeats! So exciting!
That's all for now.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
7 weeks 0 days
It was Bring Your Kid To Work Day today. This was the first time that I have ever been able to participate in this activity since before working as a case manager, I was a General Manager of a Wendy's. I don't think my daughter, Devanne was too excited about coming to work with me at first but HEY! at least it got her out of school for one day. My work is totally awesome and have lots of different activities planned for her to do all day. There were about 10 kids here that were around her age and she has had a great time so far. I love Devanne, my littlest baby (for now) so much! She means the world to me and I can't believe how fast she is growing up.
I made it to 7 weeks! The time seems to be going faster and faster. I am excited for my prenatal appointment coming up on Monday. This weekend shouldn't be too bad either. Saturday, Devanne has a softball game at 4 and then she is going to spend the night at my mom's house for the night. I think Josh is going to take me out to play bingo. Bingo is SO fun! I haven't been forever either! Just not enough money in the world... Sunday, I think we are going to go to church. This will be different for us as Josh is Buddhist and I just don't go to church. When we were having a bunch of problems with bleeding and cramps, I thought that I was going to lose the babies. I told myself in my head that if God let these babies survive that I would believe in him and I would go to church. Little did I know, Josh had told himself the same thing. We decided to start going to a Christian church that is down the street from our house and I am quite excited about it. I really want my children to grow up with some faith. Devanne was baptized Catholic but she has only been to church a handful of times and doesn't much enjoy it. I am hoping that we can get her into it.
I will be sure to post on Monday after the doctor's appointment if I don't before that.
I made it to 7 weeks! The time seems to be going faster and faster. I am excited for my prenatal appointment coming up on Monday. This weekend shouldn't be too bad either. Saturday, Devanne has a softball game at 4 and then she is going to spend the night at my mom's house for the night. I think Josh is going to take me out to play bingo. Bingo is SO fun! I haven't been forever either! Just not enough money in the world... Sunday, I think we are going to go to church. This will be different for us as Josh is Buddhist and I just don't go to church. When we were having a bunch of problems with bleeding and cramps, I thought that I was going to lose the babies. I told myself in my head that if God let these babies survive that I would believe in him and I would go to church. Little did I know, Josh had told himself the same thing. We decided to start going to a Christian church that is down the street from our house and I am quite excited about it. I really want my children to grow up with some faith. Devanne was baptized Catholic but she has only been to church a handful of times and doesn't much enjoy it. I am hoping that we can get her into it.
I will be sure to post on Monday after the doctor's appointment if I don't before that.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
6 weeks, 6 days
Hello everybody! I am feeling pretty ok today. It scares me a little. I still have not gotten true morning sickness (puking). The only symptom I have been feeling lately is tired! Other than that I have just been quite hormonal. I have been really snappy at my husband, thankfully, he is being sweet about it. I hope that this is normal. I have my first prenatal appointment on Monday and hope that they will quell all of my fears. I can't imagine losing my babies now.
I have so many hopes and dreams for the future now. I can't wait until I have a family of five. I can't imagine myself a mother of three. But like I told my husband, no matter what happens with these babies, I will always be a mother of three from here on out. I am so connected to them already.
I have so many hopes and dreams for the future now. I can't wait until I have a family of five. I can't imagine myself a mother of three. But like I told my husband, no matter what happens with these babies, I will always be a mother of three from here on out. I am so connected to them already.
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