7 weeks 4 days

Wow! What a weekend it has been!

I ended up going to the ER on Saturday night because I was having cramping all day. The tenderness started from the morning and as the day progressed, the sharp pains started. I was freaking out so I went into the ER. The doctor seemed like such a scmuck. He told me that basically there was nothing that he could do and that if I was going to lose the babies, I was going to lose the babies. Obviously I know that there is nothing he could do to stop it, but c'mon! How about some reassurance? To make matters worse, I asked him to perform an ultrasound to check both of the babies, make sure that they both had heartbeats, etc... He did not want to do that because he said that if they were going to die there was nothing he could do about it. I basically made him do an abdominal, he would not do a vaginal. He only found one heartbeat! He wouldn't look for the other one. He told me, "well, we found one, so I'm sure that the other is ok." I was so scared! On Sunday, I felt much better cramping wise but was still scared and tired from the long stay.

Today was my first prenatal appointment. I told the doctor about the ER incident and thankfully, she was very concerned. She wheeled in an ultrasound machine right away and did a vaginal u/s. She found both of the beating hearts. That made me feel so much better. Everything else in the appointment went great. She said that because I am having twins, it is a high risk pregnany but she doesn't forsee any problems, whatsoever. She does want me to register for the one hospital that Kaiser has that has a 3 level NICU in case I go into preterm labor. All of these things are flying through my head now and I am so worried and excited at the same time. Now that we saw both of the heartbeats, the chances of miscarriage is very slim but you never know if and when these babies are going to decide to come out. My personal goal is to carry them for 37 weeks. However, I have to do that...

My next appointment is at the end of the month. I will be 12 weeks and supposely we will hear the heartbeats! So exciting!

That's all for now.

6 weeks, 5 days

Wow! This week has gone by fast. My daughter had 5 softball game throughout the week and it was actually good weather so that was nice!

I have been thinking about how scared I am to have these two babies. I don't know how to handle two. One would have been fantastic, two is a little crazy. I am worried about having a c-section and if my babies will be healthy. I am worried about premature labor and whether my babies will have to stay in the hospital. Is this normal? Do all people worry like this? I am also very excited for everything to come. I know that I am going to love these 2 babies so much. I know I have enough love for all of my family. I am worried about my daughter also. She is feeling a bit jealous already since the family is so excited about 2 babies. I wonder how she is going to handle all this coming.

This week has been exhausting! I am tired all the time. My stomach is definetely getting bigger. It is so weird that I am already showing. I can't wait for my doctor's appointment next Monday. I will be 7 weeks, 4 days and hopefully they can answer some of my questions and ease some of my worries.