It's been 5 weeks already...

Everyday, I think about blogging but then I don't. Right now, I am sitting at the computer staring down at my beautiful babies. They are trying to sleep. Jocey has her arm entwined in Adey's. It is so adorable. I can't believe that it has already been 5 weeks. Time just flies. The past 5 weeks has been a whirlwind. A lot has happened...

I had the girls home for 3 days before Jocey had to be readmitted to the hospital. She wasn't eating and she had lost over a pound since her birth. It was so scary. What was worse was they would not let me bring Adey there because of the whole H1N1 policy. It was horrible. How do you choose between which baby to spend time with? I was breastfeeding so it didn't leave me much choice but to stay home with Adey while Josh spent all of his time at the hospital. I was so depressed not having both of my babies with me. What made it worse was Josh was going to be returning to work and then neither of us would be with Jocey. Thankfully, the doctor felt that this was ridiculous and she called the higher powers. They gave me permission to bring Adey to the hospital. Jocey had a private room so we bunked out on the couch for a week. One day she just started eating again and quickly gained weight. We were able to bring her home after 6 days. I have never felt like that before. My daughter was perfectly healthy from the time she was born until now (9 years later). I never want to have a sick child again.

After that scare, I have loved everyday I get to spend with all of my children. They are growing so fast. They both are a little over 6 pounds now. They both have had their first real smiles. I just look into their pretty eyes and feel this overwhelming love. Everyday that my older daughter comes home from school, I look at her and want to cry. I think I am a little emotional still! I just love my family so much.

The babies are SO good. I couldn't have asked for better. We are on a 3 hour eating schedule. They both wake up after 3 hours, get their diapers changed, eat and at night fall right back to sleep. During the day, they can stay up for the whole 3 hours playing and staring at each other! Neither baby is overly cranky. I am lucky!

I feel so complete.

Welcome Home Jocelyn Mae and Adelyn Ruth

Just a short update to let everyone know that we had our beautiful twin girls on November 10th, 2009. I was 35 weeks, 5 days pregnant! Jocelyn Mae was 5 lbs, 9 ozs, 18.5 inches long and her sister, Adelyn Ruth was 4 lbs, 11 ozs, 17.6 inches tall. They are little peanuts but are perfect and healthy. We all went home yesterday (after 3 days in the hospital) and are getting all settled in. I will post more later when I get a little time!

35 weeks, 2 days

I can say that this week has been the worst week that I have had in a long time. I got my H1N1 shot on Monday. Tuesday, I started to have a bit of a headache but it was manageable. By Tuesday night, I thought that I was going to die. My throat was killing me, I had the most congested nose ever, my head hurt, my whole body hurt. I was thinking, "well, maybe I am just getting a reaction from the shot." Wednesday was way worse as I started not being able to breathe from all the mucus in my throat. On Thursday, I couldn't even talk and had to go straight to the hospital. They did a strep test, that was negative. They did a chest x-ray, that was normal. They didn't think that I had H1N1 because I didn't have a fever. The babies looked great on the monitors so they sent me home. Of course, that night, I got a fever and the chills but I didn't want to go back to the hospital and it quickly went down after taking tylenol. Friday was still horrible. Today, I am feeling a little bit better. I can actually breathe and when I swallow, it doesn't feel like a million needles going down my throat. I feel for anyone that has to be sick while pregnant. I am so huge now, that it hurts just to turn over. I toss and turn all night. I just want to get up to 37 weeks and then I want these babies to make their appearance! That is only 12 days away! We can make it.

34 weeks, 4 days

It hasn't been a very exciting week which is fine with me. Halloween went well. We went to my mom's house for trick or treating and to have Devanne's birthday party with the family. She got totally spoiled as usual. She is out playing with her new rollerblades right now, actually. I stayed home while Josh and most of my family took DJ trick or treating. I wish that I could have walked around with them but I just kept thinking next year, I am going to be carting around 3 kids; 2 11 month olds! That is going to be so fun!

Today was another doctor's appointment for me. Everything seems to be going good except that my blood pressure is starting to creep up there. I haven't been feeling that great either, headaches, etc. My doctor didn't seem very worried yet. My cervix was still the same, 2 cm, 50% effaced. That is not budging! The doctor did get worried when he listened to the girls' heartbeats. He thought they were too fast but I knew it was because they were moving around. Needless to say, we got an NST today instead of tomorrow and they both passed with flying colors. We are going to keep an eye on my blood pressure but for the most part, it looks like I will not be going into premature labor. My 36 weeks starts next Thursday, 9 days away! I am so excited! I get to stop taking the medication and get to be up and about. My husband swears as soon as I am off the nephpine, I will go into labor. We will see.

I can't believe that I am going to be a mommy of three soon!

33 weeks, 6 days

Yes, I am still pregnant. I can't really believe it myself. The doctor, my family and I all thought that I would have delivered by now but I am still trucking along. My cervix has stayed at 2-3 cm dilated and I still have about 1.9 cm of length yet. Now we are talking full-term babies. I am happy with that. I am still taking nephaphene every four hours and I am on bedrest even though, I have to admit I haven't done such a great job with staying off of my feet all the time. It is getting harder though, to even stand up. I am so big and the girls are pushing 4.5-5 lbs each. I have 10 lbs of pure baby inside of me. I am tired all the time because I am a complete insomniac. I can not sleep at night! I hate it. First, they told me it was because of the steroid shots that I received to mature the babies' lungs but that was 3 weeks ago and I still can't sleep at night. It is so uncomfortable and I have to pee at least once an hour. I am so ready to have these babies but I know that a few more weeks will definitely make a great difference. I would like the babies not to have spent anytime in the NICU so that is my number 1 goal for now. We are all ready for them to come whenever they do come. The nursery is finished and the carseats are all installed and checked over. I love walking into the nursery and knowing that I am going to have my beautiful girls in there in such a short amount of time. I can't wait to hold them and see their faces. I just keep wondering what they are going to look like? Are they going to have hair? Are they going to be colickly babies or are they going to be calm like their older sister was? My husband and I talk all the time about the excitement of having these girls. I know that it is going to be hard and I know that I am going to be tired but it is going to be so worth it.

My daughter turned 9 yesterday! I can't believe how fast time has flown. She is all into the skinny jeans and other fashions that seem way too old for her. She keeps asking me for a cell phone. She says that ALL the kids in her class have a phone. I just laugh at this knowing this is probably exactly what I said to my mom. I told her no way, no how is she going to have a cell phone until she is at least 12 or 13. How ridculous for a child to have a cell phone when they shouldn't be anywhere without their parents anyway. She is just growing up way too fast. I know this is going to happen to the twins also. It makes me so sad!

Anyways, just wanted to give a short update. I am happy that most of the moms on the blogs that I follow have had their babies already! Everyone seems happy and healthy. It makes me feel better for our future.

31 weeks, 1 day

So to continue, I was feeling great. My doctor had me come in once a week for a check with her but I was also coming in once a week for a non-stress test. The test was mostly for Jocelyn since she didn't like to cooperate very well with the nurse. The next non-stress test took an hour and a half because Jocelyn didn't react or breathe until the last second. I knew that she was ok and so did the nurse but she wanted me to go see the periontologist anyways. I had not seen a peri the whole pregnancy so I was kind of excited. They were going to do a full ultrasound, non-stree test and consult with me. When I went in for the ultrasound, the tech automatically knew why Jocelyn seemed to be acting up, her placenta was hooked to the top of my stomach! The doctor had to have known that. The tech said that when someone put a doppler on her to listen to her heart, it would be hard to detect because of the placenta and I wouldn't be able to feel her as often as her sister either. I was so happy. They are so big! Jocelyn is 3.9 lbs and Adelyn is 3.11 lbs. They both look fantastic and passed the ultrasound test with flying colors. Also, Jocelyn was still breech but Adelyn had moved head down. One other very important thing to add here is my cervix was seen in the ultrasound. It was measured at 3.91 cm and was closed on the inside! I was thinking wow! that is great news!

Next was the non-stress test. Both babies did wonderfully, they passed with flying colors. The peri came in and said that I and the babies are in perfect health. She expected me to go full-term and everything would be perfect. I was crying when I left that appointment. I was so happy that everything was turning out how I had planned. Oh how funny life is.

I decided that since I was doing so well, I would go out to lunch with my mom. I went to her office and waited for her lunch hour. Finally, around one, we took a trip to the big Del Taco. I ate and ate and ate. It was so good! After about an hour, we were ready to leave and I went to the bathroom. I looked down and there was a spot of blood and my panties were soaked. I did not know what to think. I went out to the car where my mom was laughing. I told her oh great, I probably peed my pantsbut I don't know. We decided that I better take a trip to the hospital just to check and make sure. So I went laughing the whole way. When I got to the hospital, they examined me, it was probably just pee. They checked my cervix, I was still a 1. My contractions on the other hand were 1-2 minutes apart. I was just thinking, yea yea, we have been here before, just let me go home. The doc was aparently thinking the same thing and came in all ready to discharge me about 2 hours after she first checked my cervix. She said that she just wanted to check it one more time and then I could go home. When she checked, I was a 3 and 50% effaced. Now, I was not feeling any pain with these contractions, I have no clue what happened. Obviously, I wasn't going home.

So here I am today, 3 days later, on magnesium and wishing life would go a little faster. I hate the magnesium. Mostly, because I cannot drink hardly anything. I drink about 14-15 glasses of water a day and now they have me at maybe 3 or 4. I am so thirsty. I dream about water. I day dream about water. Supposely, it has something to do with not getting water in your lungs but I don't really care at this point. I am so uncomfortable. Even my butt is chapped. I am so oily and my face has broken out. I feel horrible because all I want to do is complain when I know that my babies are still inside of me kicking away. I just wish that I could be at home! To make matters worse, I am not able to see my daughter at all. The hospital has implemented a strict nobody under 18 is allowed in the hospital because of the swine flu. So if I am here for 4-5 more weeks, I cannot see her. Last night was the last night that I had with her. After she left, I just cried and cried and cried. I am probably going to miss her birthday. My parents are taking care of her right now while my husband comes straight from work and spends the night with me. I don't know how long that is going to last. She needs to be at home with her regular schedule, which means that I am going to have to be here by myself. I just keep trying to tell myself, 4 more weeks. I know that women here in the hospital have been here a lot longer, I know women on these blogs that have done months and months, but UGH!

28.5 weeks-30 weeks

It feels like I haven't been on this forever to update. It has actually been 3 weeks or so now. I am writing this from a hospital bed so it will probably be in two posts so it is not so long.

After my first baby shower that Sunday, I felt a little weird. I had gone a little crazy on the cake and ice cream and soda but I hadn't felt Jocelyn (baby A) move in what seemed like forever. But I thought, well, I will just give it awhile and we will see. I went to work Monday and I guess I sort of forgot about it. I don't know how you can forget but I did. On Monday night, I mentioned it to my hubby again and he wanted me to go to the doctor's office right away on Tuesday morning. So I did, thinking that I was crazy and everything was going to perfectly fine. Well, they scheduled me for a non-stress test. At that point, it was the first that I had ever had. She hooked me up to all the monitors and fairly quickly we (the nurse and I) started noticing all the contractions that were going on. I wasn't feeling them though. Then Jocelyn had a dip in her heartrate. It was only one but the nurse did not like that at all. Also she just wasn't as reactive as her sister was. She was moving from the ultrasound but her heartrate wasn't going up. The doctor came in to do a cervix check on me since I was having so many contractions and found that I was dilated to a 1. She said, "Go straight to the hospital."

Long story short, I was in the hospital for 1 day and a half. They gave me the steroids to help the babies lungs to mature and they kept me on contraction medication that they sent me home with. Even though, I was still contracting, the doctor took a look at my cervix before he cleared me to go home and I was still a 1. He said that the contractions were not changing my cervix so it didn't worry them. I was on bedrest for then on out and needed to follow up with my doc a few days later.

I did what they said, I stayed on bedrest for a few days. When I went to see my doctor, she checked my cervix again, still I was a 1. I asked her if I was able to take my daughter to school and pick her up in the afternoon. Basically, she told me to do what I needed to do as long as I wasn't having contractions.

So I did. I had the second baby shower with my in-laws but I took it easy. I sat down most all day. I felt great.