21 weeks 1 day

Yesterday, I had a bit of a scare, actually a HUGE scare! I have been having a preterm labor nurse call me every week until the babies are born. This was set up by the hospital. When they call, they ask how my week went, if I have had any contractions, back pain or anything else that would suggest I am going into labor. The nurse emailed me yesterday. I emailed her back with a few things. A few days ago, I felt some tightening in my stomach. I couldn't really tell if they were contractions but it was really hot outside and I had been doing some cleaning, so I figured they were. I drank a bunch of water and went to bed and they went away. Yesterday, my lower back was killing me and I felt like (TMI coming up) I was having a lot of vaginal pressure. I was entirely concerned but wanted to ask her about them. She told me that I was probably having contractions and that it was a good thing that I got them to go away on my own. Then she said that I needed to keep a really close eye on my back pain and pressure. I kind of just deleted her email like it was nothing but as the day went by, the pain and the pressure were still there. I called my husband who said, "its better to be safe than sorry." So we called the nurse's advice line to ask their opinions. I thought that they might just tell me to come in and get checked out but instead they told me to go straight to Labor and Delivery. I started crying and freaking out. I didn't think it was that serious. As soon as I heard Labor and Delivery I was thinking, "but wait, I am not delivering anything..." I went to the hospital and the nurse hooked me up to a contraction moniter. Much to my astonishment, I was having very small contractions every 10 minutes. I started freaking out staring at the contraction moniter. I can feel the tightening of my stomach but I just figured it was the babies moving around in there. The doctor finally came in (about 2.5 hours later) and did a cervical check. My cervix was completely closed. They did a speculum exam to see if I had any infections... I did not. They looked at my urine to make sure that I was hydrated... they said I did a great job at that. They did a vaginal ultrasound to see if my cervix was shortening... it wasn't. By the end of 5 hours, they have no idea why I was having contractions. They think it might be from the heat... it is SO hot here but they aren't sure. The doctor says that she is not worried about it since my cervix has not changed a bit. She believes that the back ache is from the babies and has no clue why I feel pressure. Needless to say... I am realived about the cervix not being dialated but so scared about contractions. I don't think that this is normal.

I talked to the babies. I told them that they had 15 more weeks. They are not allowed out until 36 weeks and hopefully they will make it to 39 weeks. I told them they would be in big trouble if they came out before then... haha! like they are going to listen... they just twisted and kicked me more. I love these babies so much! They are my children. I am already the mother of 3 kids, I don't want anything to happen to them. I guess we will just have to see. I have an OB appointment on Tuesday so maybe MY doc will have something to say about it.

15 weeks, 5 days!

I can't believe how fast the time is flying by. I will be 16 weeks in two days! It is seriously amazing. I have actually been feeling so much better lately. I am still exhausted. Whoever said that tiredness is supposed to go away in the 2nd trimester obviously wasn't preggo with twins. I am pooped everyday when I get home from work. I have been trying to exercise more. My husband has been making me take a walk every night after dinner. I hate him everyday for it but I am sure that it is good for me. Also, my family and I have been going hiking a lot this month. This last weekend we went to a local waterfall. We hiked 3.5 miles. It was worth it when I saw the waterfall but I have to admit that I wanted to die on the way up. I have been trying to eat better as well. It is still hard because everything that is bad for me sounds so good. But I have been forcing myself to have a good breakfast and lunch. Then sometimes for dinner, I splurge. I have only gained about 2 lbs so far... I guess that is pretty good. I was reading some other pregnant mothers weight gains that are as far along as I am and some of them have gained 10-15 lbs with one. That is probably good for them but since I was already overweight to begin with, I am glad that I haven't started gaining weight that rapidly. I know the babies are growing because my stomach is growing at an alarming rate everyday. I look like I am 5-6 months pregnant already! It is crazy. I think that I have been feeling them move. I am not completely sure but every so often I feel a lil' tap-tap. It will go on for a few minutes and then it will be a couple more hours (or the next day) but I feel something else. It is probably just the beginning. I can't wait to feel them all the time. I know that I will want that to be over with when I can't sleep at night but it will make me feel so much better knowing that they are alright in there. I am excited for my prenatal appointment next Monday. My husband and I are going to bring our daughter for the first time. I am hoping that we will be able to hear the heartbeats. Our daughter wants to hear them so bad! Our ultrasound is scheduled for July 9th! I can't wait for that! I want to know what if I am having the two girls that I think I am. My husband thinks that there are two boys and my daughter thinks that there is going to be a boy and a girl but I have felt since the beginning that I am having two girls, I don't know why.

I am just so happy to have made it to this point without any major problems and hope that the coming months are going to be a bunch of the same. I was looking at the majority of the twin mothers have their children around 35-36 weeks, if that is true I have only 20 weeks left! That is so soon. I don't know if I am ready but I want to see their sweet faces!

6 weeks, 5 days

Wow! This week has gone by fast. My daughter had 5 softball game throughout the week and it was actually good weather so that was nice!

I have been thinking about how scared I am to have these two babies. I don't know how to handle two. One would have been fantastic, two is a little crazy. I am worried about having a c-section and if my babies will be healthy. I am worried about premature labor and whether my babies will have to stay in the hospital. Is this normal? Do all people worry like this? I am also very excited for everything to come. I know that I am going to love these 2 babies so much. I know I have enough love for all of my family. I am worried about my daughter also. She is feeling a bit jealous already since the family is so excited about 2 babies. I wonder how she is going to handle all this coming.

This week has been exhausting! I am tired all the time. My stomach is definetely getting bigger. It is so weird that I am already showing. I can't wait for my doctor's appointment next Monday. I will be 7 weeks, 4 days and hopefully they can answer some of my questions and ease some of my worries.

6 weeks and 1 day

IT'S TWINS!

We went for the ultrasound today. I was so scared and nervous. They did a regular stomach ultrasound first as soon as they put the camera on my stomach, I saw them. TWO SACS! I asked the tech about them and she said, "Well, let's just wait until we do the vaginal ultrasound." We did the vaginal and there they were again. Two perfectly healthy babies. They had two sacs and their heartbeats were perfect. I was crying so much and my husband was so happy.

This explains so much! It seems like I have been showing for 2 weeks already, why I am so exhausted and why I am feeling so much nausea! I can't wait for my little ones to come. I just want to hug and squeeze them!